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Key
Concepts Index
Journaling
Know thyself,
~Socrates
"Know thyself" was one of the
essential principles in the philosophy of Socrates. It was an emphatic assertion
of the importance of self knowledge in the development of the good life.
We often take a lot of what
we do and how we think for granted. We go through much of our lives on
autopilot. This holds particularly true for both our binge eating behaviors and
many of the thoughts that surround those behaviors.
Journaling facilitates the
transformation of wishing into doing—thinking
into action. It is a conscious dialog between our inner world and outer. It
helps change vague stirring and loose ideas into concrete thoughts. It gives us
a history of our thought processes so we can view them in a more objective way.
We can uncover patterns and dynamics that are often not easy to see any other
way.
Keep a Food & Mood Journal
This may be the most
important step in the initial phase of recovery. Getting fully in touch with the
dynamics of our binge eating empowers recovery. Keeping records of what
is eaten, why we eat it, and what we were feeling and thinking at the time, will
gradually demonstrate that much of our out of control binging is not nearly as
out of our control as we had thought. This journaling goes well beyond just
knowing we are overweight or that we binge even though we wish we didn't. Of
course we are already well aware of those things in a global sort of way. We are
looking for patterns and specific triggers to our binging—when
they occur, why they occur, and how. When we have specific answers to these
kinds of questions we can begin to see specific solutions that fit our
individual issues with food and eating.
This journaling can take
place before we try to alter our binging behavior, in fact, that may be the most
productive route to changing it. It is hard to fix something if we don't know
exactly what's broken.
A food and mood journal should include the time of day, what was eaten, where, and notes about what
your inner thoughts were and what you were feeling. It should not include or be
about how many calories or carbs are in the food. This is a journal about
awareness, to be written with a compassionate and non-judgmental attitude
towards yourself. In the beginning, we only want to observe our own behavior. We
aren't trying to change anything. After a few weeks we can begin the gentle
process of making small changes keeping in mind that this process is about the
long-haul, the bigger picture. What we want to do is to make changes that last a
lifetime; to change and grow so we no longer need to resort to binging to cope
with life.
Making columns on paper for
each aspect works best. Keeping a notebook with you so you don't have to try and do
it from memory helps. Not so much for accuracy about what we ate, but in the immediate awareness of
your thoughts, feelings, and the nature of how you are eating. We don't want
this to be a compulsive process like our binging and dieting was.
Untwisted
Thinking
Examining the messages we
tell ourselves about food, how we eat, and about our selves, is another area where a
type of journaling can be profoundly helpful and empowering. Psychologists have
long known that the way we perceive the world is the way we respond to the
world. If our internal interpretation (thoughts) about a situation is negative,
our feelings and reactions to that situation will be negative. If we think about
a situation positively, our feelings will follow. Our thoughts give meaning to
the experience.
The meaning we give to an event or situation helps determine our emotional
response to it. Our thinking, to a large degree, controls our feelings. This
isn't a process we generally give much thought to. In many cases we have been so
conditioned to accept certain thought patterns that they are automatic. They
have become habit. Sometimes, these automatic thoughts are irrational. For
instance, a common irrational thought for dieters is idea that if we eat even a
little "forbidden" food or overeat at one meal, we have failed entirely so we
might as well go ahead and binge. There are more rational ways to think about
and handle a small lapse.
Learning to spot these "irrational thoughts" and then countering them with
rational thoughts takes practice. Journaling these thoughts and rational
responses on paper is a key concept of recovery and an excellent tool for personal
growth and healing.
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Being willing to seriously try doing things like journaling foods and moods
demonstrates the level of commitment one really has—just
what lengths they are willing to go to to overcome binge eating disorder. By
journaling my foods and moods for several weeks I learned a great deal about
myself and my eating disorder that I hadn't been able to see even after years of
dieting. I still journal for a few days now and again. It seems to help me keep
focused and I always seem to learn something new.
Learning how
to spot and then counter my
distorted thinking empowered me to get past the
"I'll start tomorrow" trap and to be able to halt a binge before it was
completed. It also helps me on a daily basis to manage my depression in a
constructive and healthy way.
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